The first days of this new year have been difficult for our community. One of our sisters here in Pueblo decided to make a new chapter of her life outside our congregation. I was deeply saddened and started to worry about many things. I felt stressed and overwhelmed by worries about many things. Reading this passage makes me ask God, “What do I need to understand now?”
My emotions were all mixed up. I was sad, frustrated, angry, unsure, and scared of what the future holds for us. I had a lot of questions and blamed others for what happened. As each day passes, each emotion affects my decisions, words, and actions. I realized I had to stop, breathe, and have my argument with God.
When Jesus reproaches his disciples for their lack of understanding and faith and reminds them of the miracles he has performed with the loaves and fishes, he wants them to realize that he is the bread of life and can provide for all their needs. I then looked in my heart and realized I acted exactly like the disciples.
I have to remember God’s faithfulness and power in my life and community and how he has provided for us in the past. I should not worry about many things but continuously seek his kingdom and righteousness first. I should not doubt his promises but hold steadfast to his love and grace.
The sad events of life should not blind us and fail to see God’s presence and recognize him as the source of all good and perfect gifts. He is the bread of life; I need him more than anything else.
Father in heaven, thank you for your Son, Jesus Christ, our bread of life, and help us listen more to his teachings. Thank you for your help and provisions, and remind us constantly of your faithfulness and love. Forgive us if we sometimes lack faith and perception of your presence and provisions. Grant us the eyes to continually see your presence in our daily lives. In Jesus’ name. Amen.